I’m not perfect and I “don’t” think I am. I have flaws like any other living human. I may be good in school and “book smart” but that doesn’t mean I have it all. I tend to think I have the ugliest eyes because I just don’t like small eyes. I tend to be so nice to people that people think that its “fake”. I yell at my siblings just like all of you. Yeah, it seems like we get along but when it comes to maintaining their A’s and being respectful, I’m really viscous towards that but that’s only because I care. I use to live in a old beat up house and we worked our butts off to be where I am today. I clearly don’t sit at home and depend on being “spoiled”. I don’t take the time out to make people like me or not. If you don’t like me, I’m still nice and if you do like me, I’m still nice. No, its not being “fake”. There’s no point in fighting about it because I understand we all have flaws. But if I have friends that are willing to overcome my flaws and still deal with me, then that’s the people I want in my life.
it sucks literally to be the person that disappoints your friend. when you see them so happy with their bf and significantly other but you can’t find the words to explain that their bf is a complete asshole. it sucks when their boyfriend knew that you knew what was going on but acts as if you know nothing. when your friend thinks that their relationship is so perfect and you had to break that picture for her. you deserve to know the truth and I’m sorry for the pain that you’re feeling. It just sucks that I had to be the person you came to at the end. trust me, it got us closer but it hurts to see you like this. keep your head upppp!
I don’t want others to get the image that I hate anyone. I don’t hate anyone and honestly, now a days, I just want to be a role model for kids. I want them to understand that they can’t hate others. Regardless of the shit talk, drama, and jealously, it’s not right. I don’t want them to bring up that I hate anyone so they can too. My mom always told me hate is such a strong word.
holy eff. what a terrible week of school but hilarious as hell. my biology teacher is a B****. literally, i thought college would be a knock off but seriously in high school when they force you to turn things in and all, u get lazy and rant on about school but now in college, when they let u do whatever you want and you don’t even have to go to class or turn things in, you want to do it to earn the freaking A in the class. Honestly, I have a feeling I’m going to fail biology. I’m studying my ass off and its such a killer. Even some of my friends are dropping their bio majors next semester. It sucks literally, we said we’re going to make it there but with these professors and just the method of learning, I’m sad to see most majors being switched /: On the upside, me, danessa, and alex had a cranky vent session after our lab together. Oh god, our TA sucks ass and she kept making us redo our labs and get everything exact -_-. it was hilarious literally because it was so bad. we finally got home at 9:30 P.M.
After constantly working and resisting the temptation to spend a single dime, I’ve saved so much money that I dunno even know what to do with it. I don’t even need a car and I don’t really need anything anymore. Im just proud of myself!! (:
I should stop listening to what others have to say about me because it may and it may not be true. I eventually learned to let everything go because its my last year of high school and I just wanna feel good and happy (: After all these tcc classes end of course. STRESS FREEEEEEEE hurry!
who don’t have a mother or father. Seriously…you have no idea how I feel for you. I always thought you were stupid and a total %^%$^$ but honestly, these past two weeks, I’ve got to know you so much more. You’re right…we’re turning into like sisters. Your right, no one has the right to know how your place is like. Sure, other parents get a divorce and other people don’t have either a mom or dad but everything that happens…makes you stronger. You work hard for your money and you have another side of you that I’ve never seen. I’m glad you came to me to talk to when you needed someone the most. I’ll always be here to listen and me and jimmy will always be there for you. We will help you get through this <3
that we’re just plain badluck. I see families out there living life without anything going wrong. seriously? This is the FIFTH accident. Accident? Not even! Car after car. Within these 2 years, we bought four cars and going to our fifth. Tell me if that isn’t bad luck or what? fml this is why I decided not to drive.
What would I be without my brother? He lets me vent to him and instead of making me mad more, we both laugh. I told him what happened at school when these people picked on me and my friends. He told me my school couldn’t get any worst hehehe. I apologize for my million use of cuss words. My brother said I was turning into one of those girls that write “crap” on tumblr and create drama. I giggled because I knew I was wrong when I submitted a post like that. It’s cyber-bullying and I apologize. It’s just when you watch people pick on your friends, you literally want to go off on them. I hate seeing people pick on my friends. I know I can hold in so much until someone literally pisses me off but when I see my friends get bullied around. I want to smack them. I don’t like seeing others hurt because it makes my feelings 10x worse. I’m thankful that my brother always reminds me that tumblr shouldn’t be used for drama. I’m immature sometimes and I only learn each and every day (: I get tempted to write about so much people but I don’t because I know it hurts to read things on the internet and I don’t want to be in that position. Karma, ya know?
Wow I just hate people at my school. They have no respect and they sit there and talk their shit. Seriously? I’ve had enough of this school. I hate people who think their so superior and have to pick on others or rather talk their shit. Yeah sure your making your friends think of how “funny” you are but please…what you’re being is a bully. Talking trash, calling people names, and just plainly being rude. Let’s see where you get in life. FUCK YOU. Watch how capable I am when I rage. Fuck seriously. I mean seriously I hate seeing myself being the old me but moving to Arlington has really fucked my mind. I act way too nice. I ignore shit when honestly I don’t want to. And I get taken advantaged of. Finally off probation but seriously if this keeps up, I’ll end up making the same mistakes in life again.
It’s so nice to know who you can trust. Throughout high school I always had a problem with trusting others. It goes all around like nothing. We don’t even talk anymore and I really do miss you. That time when you took me to class and talked to me about everything made me feel so much better. It’s sad that I never see you anymore and when I do I can rarely talk to you because there’s not enough time. You made me so welcome when I got here and I never got a chance to thank you. Recently you told me to text you but texting isn’t the same. I apologize that we couldn’t keep such a close friendship. The last time I saw you was hilarious. Even though we couldn’t stop to chit chat. I laughed because me and Jimmy messed with you. Honestly though, even with how our friendship is now, it makes me still happy because I know you wouldn’t fail on me when in rough times.
when I yell at my boyfriend. He’s done so much for me and sometimes we just fight but everyone has those moments. We both apologize and try to make it through everything♥ He’s a really sweet guy regardless of what I’ve heard. & maybe he has changed for me. He always takes me to school and picks me up when he can, whatever I need done…he gets done for me right away, and he tries to buy me the whole world. I especially like the days he’s off because he takes me out all day. It’s like a date everyday! (: & he’s such a gentleman for opening the car door for me. He’s a total sweetheart and honestly, it’s hard to find a guy like him. His family is so loving and they always want me to get comfortable around but with such a big family, HOW DO I GET COMFORTABLE? At least I’m close to his dad’s side. Maybe because his cousin goes to my school and through all the things she’s ever said about me, I managed to forgive because I know she cares about me. She always has an ear to listen to my vents and we manage to giggle at the stupidest things. I can honestly say that there was a point of time where I was like “ugh $#%$#%$# her,” but then my boyfriend made me realize that she’s part of the family and we all have to accept each other regardless. I love how he’s such a family oriented guy. He cares for his family so much when I see it but he tries to act like a total spoiled butt around them (: especially with Uncle Tony. HEHEHEHHE overall love= jimmy & his family!
I’m going to miss going to high school every day. Time flies and I never thought I would be graduating so soon. I remember when I barely just got here. It was so hard to make new friends and I hated everything about this place. I kept it inside and told myself that I can get myself through this but honestly, I couldn’t have done it with such amazing people in school. It’s sad that some of them I don’t even talk to and lately I just want to tear up because I know I won’t see them anymore. I wanted my last semester of school with all of us spending time together but with all the downs we went through, I know it wouldn’t happen. I never forgot those people who helped me wake up each and every day to go to school. If it wasn’t for you all, I’d probably hate this place like no other. I’m glad I have a group of friends I can share thoughts and times with. I just wanted to take it off my chest that…I really do appreciate everything that you all have done. I just wish…we all can all have a good time before I walk on that stage because I really am going to miss you all. Regardless if I stopped talking to any of you, I still care a lot about you all. And I’m just afraid that I’m going to regret leaving a year early. I wish I had some encouragement but lately all I ever get is, “Man why are you graduating early?” When really I just wanna tear up and smile that we’re all growing up so fast. I just wish you guys could of walked the stage with me but I know that going out a year early can get me through college so much faster. /:
Be That Leader & Motivate Others To Follow Your Path
It always takes one person to motivate another person to do the right thing. In society, we consume like there’s no tomorrow, we buy a new spiral and never touch our old ones again, and we rarely ever recycle the things that we could possibly use again. Should we keep teaching future generations to get more, use more, and never touch a can-be-used product again? The answer is NO! Imagine how spoiled our society will become. The true answer to that question is to reduce, reuse, and recycle! It just takes one person to change the habits of another person to change another person and another person and another person and so on. Maybe that’s why the people I surround myself with now a days never throw trash on the floor. Not only do I encourage reducing, reusing, and recycling, I get world pollution across their minds. Let us learn how to keep America beautiful! You could be the next leader (:
I studied for SAT’s (:It seems like so much people are taken it this Saturday. I hope everyone does well! I’m going to be exhausted because on top of waking up early for SAT’s on a saturday, I have to rush to work after. I’ve been saving to get my boyfriend something for our one yearrr (: Dunno what I’m getting for him but whatever I get, I hope he loves. It just sucks that we won’t get to spend time going out together because we both have work on our one year.
when you’re so completely tired and you just knock out. I literally woke up at 7:30 and rushed to work. I already came in late and I was tired as hect. On top of that, there was constantly customers coming in and out. All hair cut stations were filled and all the shampoo stations were filled. I’ve never experience a place so packed. I didn’t get to eat until six p.m and to be honest, other workers didn’t eat at all. It’s really hard work. I learned that it takes hard work to earn that money. After work I rushed to the mall to buy a birthday gift cause I had a party to attend to. I wasn’t really in the mood cause I was tired and my thighs were in pain already but I stayed for two hours and left. When I went home, I watched one episode of heroes but as I got to the end…I already knocked out on the bed. Now I know how my dad feels every time he gets home from work. You just want to sleep it out.
I feel like I shouldn’t have taken it. I rarely have any time for school and my family. I never see my parents and getting a job will give me less time to spend with them. However, I really am into all those girly stuff. I just feel that once I take this job, I might be sidetracked from what I’ve always wanted to be. I’ve always wanted to be an anesthesiologist but now that I’m actually working a job that I enjoy, I might switch up my career choice. Being an anesthesiologist will actually be bright for my future but what if I decide to go into a path that my parents would hate? I’m still young; I don’t need to worry too much do I?
takes so much of my time ): I’m so dedicated to my work that i always try to do things ahead and never get behind. I’ve been home for such a long time and I’m still doing homework. gahhhh!!! Why am I so dedicated to school? I mean I would kill to care less but how come I can’t be like those many people who wait last minute and care only to “pass.” Why do I always have to strive for perfection? I have to be the perfect role model for my siblings. I have to encourage everyone that I love to do great in school. I love to have life talks with others to teach them the “perfect” path in being successful. I just always appear like this perfect girl. I don’t like it. I dislike people calling me perfect. It’s like they call me perfect and act like I’m sucking up or acting as if I want to be perfect. I dislike them giggling and saying “WOOOOOWWW lily.” I can’t help it. It’s just how I am. I don’t try to “act” I just am that way. Just stop. One thing I’m not perfect at is telling people off or arguing back. I just find it rude and immature but if this keeps up, the people that love me will only stand up for me and make me feel ashamed of myself. I’m nice, I will make myself have a bright future with amazing people around but if your going to try to make fun of me in a sarcastic way…it’s not nice and I fake laugh when your laughing. You just don’t know me.